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There has been many things that i am good at but right now human relations seem to be one of the things that i am totally failing in. I have pondered what i can,could or did do to some people that might have encouraged them to act the way they do.

Sadly I can only conclude that my frustrating thoughts and assessment of this situation has left me powerless and from a point of view; weak.

Although there are a number of instances in my life that have rendered me powerless, I still try to make the best of what i can. I know that this blog is but a mere therapy that i use to my own personal necessity and that this does not justify my highly luck filled life. For that I am grateful but I also believe that one makes their own luck henceforth I am not grateful.

On another note there has been a research that teenagers and tweens especially can live without sex for a year but cannot live without music for that amount of time. When this such theory is experimented on myself i found out that as lust increases so does the thirst for music increases.

There is an old saying noting that the souls main nutrient is music. Also the act of making love intertwines two beings into becoming one. Thus sharing and transferring corporeal and theoretically ethereal nectar. A kind of energy, if you will…

When one source of energy is cut off from the ethereal self then the other must be overworked into filling the void that is in ones soul. Kind of like if you crave cigarettes a lot you start to chew a lot. Chewing makes do for the act of smoking. So by overfeeding your body to the point of obesity by music can help you overcome that feeling of lust.

Ah but if youre in love. Neither is important for the feeling of actual “love” or affection towards another will fulfill even your wildest desires for any sort of energy. It is the lubricant that acts as a vital supplementary to the gears that make your body work. But then again… Who am I to even try to describe what love does to you or your body when I myself am absent of the feeling?

It is quite easy to get out of ones life and it is easy to forget your memories and experiences with them but one thing is certain that even if you get out of your special someones life you cannot get out of their head that easily. Even if you do manage to get out of the conscious part of their mind, the part where you can manipulate and make the miracle of THINKING, yes even if you get out of their conscious mind you are still on the dark side of their sub-conscious mind. Their dreams, their sudden feelings of sadness that they cannot explain or put their finger on. Their swift change in mood, that pinch of motivation that makes them change the way that theyre walking and start walking towards your neighborhood towards your house towards your door and towards your arms!

That is why you can’t explain love, because you cant bend it to your will, your will bends it for you! Even if you don’t like it…